I think that it’s been a little while. So I decided to update a little bit. Its spring time and life is busier then ever. I got to work from 7:30 to usually 6 then get off and have softball typically 4 days out of the week (witch is getting old really fast and it is making me wonder if I want to do it) o well I guess. When we got off we always seem to have to go somewhere or run an errand anymore. Wednesday was eddy’s birthday and of course I had a game so we went out on Tuesday.  We are supposed to go out with his mom one of these nights for dinner it’s just finding time.

I hope that prom went well for everyone I heard that post prom sucked.  Eddy and I talked about it awhile ago and he said that if I wanted to go that her would.  I thought about it and decided that it would have been a waste of money, because all I would have wanted to do is get pictures taken and dance a song (I heard all but a few were rap so I don’t even know that we would have danced).  So we passed on it.  We figure that we are going to have a reason to get dressed up and pictures and dancing within the next year to year and a half and we know that we will stick around for that.

Monday night was defiantly interesting and thanks to those who came over.  I’m not going to get into all the details but ill just say a lot of threats and we all got a gun pulled on us, eddy was probably 10 feet from it. Scared the hell out of me!  It was taken away and in the mean time 5 different pigs showed up and of course it was raining and so we were soaked by the time we got home. It was defiantly not a good night. Its all better now I guess, I guess we will see how it all plays out.

The week since then has gone good. I think that we might have some people come over tonight for eddy’s birthday, I guess we’ll see. Tomorrow is going to be a very looong day. I don’t think either of us are going to go into work tomorrow.  In the morning we have to go to the bank and im going to deal with the stupid people for him. I hate west gate the people are so stupid there, but anyways so we are going to get his money out of his cd there and then take it to union bank and put it in his account there.  I hope that doesn’t take long but I have a feeling that it will. Then from 12-3 we are supposed to go out to his sisters for his niece and nephews birthday party. It’s going to be boring, but at least I don’t have eddy’s job. He has to drive there lawn mower around and pull the little kids, his mom and poop dick as eddy calls him are going to be giving the kids rides on the horses. Idk it all sounds kind of…different to me. But o well. Then after that we are going to my parent’s house because our hair lady is coming over at 3 so I’ll be a little late but I never go first anyways.  Then eddy has his family pictures at 5, they are all going and giving his grandma pics for mothers day.  Then after that we are going out to Malcolm, damn small towns anyways. I know how to get there this weekend though. Last weekend was Abby’s graduation and this weekend is Nichole’s. I told her that we were coming. My aunt is having a Tupperware party tomorrow as well but I’m not going that is way too much for one day as is.

Then Sunday we haven’t figured out yet.  We are supposed to go to his mom’s house and my uncles for dinner. The last few years my uncle has done something  for dinner but its just hot dogs and hamburgers and stuff like that, so what we will probably end up doing is going to my parents and spend the afternoon there and then go to his moms and have steaks with all of them. But I guess we will have to see how it all plays out.  For my mom we all chipped in and me and eddy are going to pick it up tonight, we got a gazebo for the backyard.  Eddy, his sister and I went and got his moms present last night from Ceresco. I don’t know that I could ever give it to someone as a surprise but I guess we will see how it goes over.  They got her a 3 month old boxer brindle. She has wanted one for years but never seen one that she wanted without paying 5-8 hundred dollars for it. But we found one. So we are taking it out to his sisters Saturday and giving it to her then.

But that’s all for now maybe ill update again in a month if I have time.

Worn out! that’s how I have been feeling lately. I work 8:30 to at least 7 and it sucks.  Im so tired by the end of the day.  Me and eddy both, I know that I bitch now but I won’t when I get my checks. That’s what makes it worth it. I haven’t really had much time to do anything lately but work. So this weekend im defiantly doing something but sit there. That’s what we do when we get off go sit on the couch and relax. Tuesday my sister came over and we put her bed frame together nothing to exciting. Then we went over to his sisters for awhile Wednesday and just sat there and talked about some things.  Then last night his dad got back into town and so we went to dinner with him at Red Robin.  We went home and his dad was going home and then coming over a little later. Maybe 2 minutes after we get home some girl comes to the door and wants to clean the carpets, yea we made some excuse because we didn’t want it done.  His dad came over and hung out awhile, then he left and we went a laid down. I had already fallen asleep for about 20 min till his dad got there.

Now its Friday we are supposed to go over to see his cousin Nicole tonight, we ran into her last night when we got off and talked for a bit. So that’s tonight who knows what we are doing she wanted to drink but I don’t know that that will happen. Who knows Eddy doesn’t really drink anymore, he tries not to, so when I feel like it he gets to drive. That’s what happened last weekend but I didn’t end up drinking much when we were out at his sisters this time, because I got upset about something and then Sal and I had a talk about whats been going on with him for at least 30 min then everyone else came out to smoke and it started to storm so the talk was over. O well he had just started saying the same stuff over and over so they all somewhat saved me.  But I didn’t mind talking because I have been though it before and I know how hard things can get. Anyways…

Easter is coming up. That should be an interesting day. Running here and there, I think its out at Eddy’s moms again this year, so I think we’ll go out there around 10ish so we can “hide” the eggs again this year.  We started last year but there isn’t that many places to hide then out there, so when we hid them where we could we just started throwing them off the porch. I think that only 1 or 2 broke.  When I was growing up they always used the plastic ones with the candy inside, but they use all real eggs.  Is it just them or me?? What does everyone else do I wonder? O well about 4ish we are going to go over to my grandparents for dinner and such. Im hopping by that time most of my second cousins are going to be gone, I don’t like seeing them.  Nothing but a bunch of small town bitches.

Working this much has made me think, I don’t know why either.  I have been thinking a lot about my life, what I have done and the memories that I have.  I think about all of the people I have been friends with throughout my life and how as we change the friendships go. I don’t regret any of it, don’t miss it. But I think if I seen any of them its not like I wont smile or say hi, ask how they are doing. I have a lot of people that are responsible for where I am at today.  If it weren’t for them I don’t know that I would have the relationship that I have with eddy, my family, friends.  I have let everything go, all but one. One person I will NEVER in my life care for and get mad ever time I even here there name. I have never been friends with them just acquaintances but that was more then enough. I don’t think that I hold onto grudges at least not as bad as some people. I mean I still here heather bitch about shit that was forever ago and to me it doesn’t matter, people change that’s that. whatever though. I know this is a long one I didn’t figure it would be at all. so if you actually made it to the bottom congrats and sorry.